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GRAVY! post rant 2007-01-11 — 10:35 a.m. |
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That was a lot, what I wrote in here last night, and I feel exactly how I knew I would. I know that I was overemotional and saying things I wouldn't mean later, and it's true, but I'm still not erasing it, more because I promised myself that I would than because I don't want to. Ryan and I both need to be happy, and we shouldn't have to apologize for doing things that make us happy. He doesn't have to be sorry for being happy with the Boy Toy and I don't have to be sorry for being upset about it. There's absolutely nothing he can say or do to make me feel better, and there's nothing I can do or say to make him not gay, and that's just the way it is, and the sooner we both accept both of those things, the better both of us are going to be. I honestly want him to be happy and he honestly wants me to be happy, and those things might just be mutually exclusive right now, and that's fine, and there's no reason for either of us to force anything. Ok. Ok. Ok. I'm working on this, all of it, and it's horrible, and I hate it, but I'm working on it. |
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