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GRAVY! cucumber rolls 2007-02-10 — 10:17 a.m. |
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oh man. oh man, oh man, oh man. Rebound Dave is absolutely something freaking ELSE. Seriously. Seriously. I don't even feel like saying "Yeah, I know i shouldn't like him this much, and we probably shouldn't have enjoyed so much of each others' company last night" because I do, and we did, and I feel amazing right now. So there. So there!!!!! We also talked a lot about stuff ... I told him just how recently the stuff happened with Ryan, and we talked about religion (he's an agnostic Jew and I'm a Christian), and relationships, and life, and countertops, and lawn flamingos, and sushi, and tea, and families, and friends, and music, and movies, and cleaning, and law, and literature, and all kind of other things ... and we are different in big ways (religion, obviously) and little ways (i'm cluttery but an antibacterial freak, he's organized but will eat stuff off the floor), but we just like each other's company so much, and feel so happy when we're around each other, and we're both completely intent on just being honest with each other about absolutely everything. The priest told me to protect my heart, and I am, but I'm also just having an absolutely wonderful time getting to know Dave, and letting him get to know me. I think this is either going to fizzle out really quickly or last a pretty good while. Remains to be seen, of course, and I am neither optimistic nor pessimistic. I'm not overanalyzing stuff or obsessing over whether or not I should feel X, I'm just feeling it, and as long as it's a positive, generative emotion instead of negative or destructive, I'm acting on it. He said he's never dated someone who has been passionate about her faith. I've dated plenty of agnostic people, but I've always thought that I couldn't have a serious relationship with someone unless he shared my faith, but you know what? Ryan is a pretty devout Catholic, and we agreed on many faith-based issues, but I honestly only rarely felt spiritually connected to him. I obviously don't feel like faith in God is a way Dave and I connect right now, but I do know that he respects the way I feel, and wants to hear about what I believe and why. And I respect the way he feels, and I want to hear about what he believes and why. Right now, we both think it's good that we can have discussions about it, and challenge each other, and neither one of us is intent on changing the other's mind. Wow. Ok. I need to get a shower and eat some food and do something amazing with my day. Woo! |
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