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GRAVY! music and lyrics 2007-03-07 — 11:27 a.m. |
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I think one of the signs that you have been going through an emotional time is that you start trying to identify with the lyrics absolutely every song you hear, and what's more, you realize you are pretty much able to identify with all of them. No matter what they're about. I have tried to identify with Jeff Buckley's "Last Goodbye" for just about every failed relationship I've ever had (the serious ones, at least), but it only really makes sense now. "Kiss me, please kiss me. Kiss me out of desire, baby, not consolation ... is there a voice unkind / in the back of your mind saying maybe / maybe, you didn't know him at all" (those are from memory, not sure if that's it word for word) This morning I got a good introspective moment from Billy Corgan's "TheCameraEye": "I need pain to change my life / In gentle mists and turning leaves we all / come to bury truth." It's funny how modern poetry does nothing for me but song lyrics just get at my very core. Even the insipid ones sometimes. I guess it's the music? The delivery? Something. Anyhoo, i'm really not all that pensive. Well, maybe i am. BB is moving to California. That's a story in itself. Another time. What i meant to say was that i'm not an emotional wreck anymore. I'm actually genuinely happy 92% of the time. And I'd say a solid A- is a good grade of happiness this soon after this mess. I still really like Dave. Dave really likes me too. He wants to hike the appalacian trail with me. This takes 5-7 months and is therefore crazy, especially considering that i've never even slept, cooked, or peed outside even once. Ever. But hey, i've never driven a prius before either, and i drove his the other night. And i've never thought i was a good cook before, but BB and Dave have thoroughly convinced me otherwise. I've also never made so much artwork, or eaten so much granola, or watched less TV, or listened to more good music, or tended more plants, or had more deep conversations with old and new friends, or enjoyed teaching so much, or felt so at peace with the fact that i have no idea where my life is really going to go. Huzzah! |
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