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GRAVY! stew 2007-07-25 — 10:08 a.m. |
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sometimes there aren't words for how angry i still am at him, at myself for letting him hurt me over and over and over again, for letting myself believe in my heart that he's a good, decent, honest person who still loves and cares for me and thinks about someone besides himself. what does it mean to truly forgive someone? can you forgive someone and still be angry with them? is it terribly arrogant of me to want him to see how good i've been to him, how understanding and patient and compassionate, even through all of this, for him to see all of that so he can have his own epiphany, one that will flush all of the lies and selfishness and immaturity out of him? yes, it is arrogant, and i do need to just get over myself, and i need to stop letting him get to me, because my life is wonderful, and dave is wonderful, and i'm happy, and i have nothing to apologize for right now. but i still stew over things. how many other times did he cheat on me? does it matter? how do i really and truly forgive him in a way that mirrors (even poorly) the way God forgives us? |
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